March 28, 2006
so how do I even start this blog entry? so yeah I moved, moved to LA. the drive was alright, i don’t mind driving by myself. i stopped at the grand canyon, i think that was the highlight of everything. had a last minute going away party tues night. but leaving on wed was so hard. i was teary-eyed all day. such a mix of emotions but especially sadness to be leaving my family, friends, and gr. yeah I leave for long periods of time but this just seems so much more permanent.
going down to chicago to help do some filming for dear francis was good wed night. it was what i needed and to see my friends dave and brent helped so much too. then while i was driving thursday afternoon i got the call. .. i landed a job at commercial production company, freelance to begin but it could turn into a long-term thing. i was happy, but not really completely happy or excited. i was still recovering from the day prior, my eyes have never hurt so much in my life.
and it's funny how you go through these periods of life and think man, i should write a song about this. at certain moments before i left i thought what i just said could be in a song. hahaha. it's just so rediculous and i'm sure everyone has had this feeling at some point. it's just funny when you think you can do it and you really can't. like being a figure skater. or maybe you can... i don't know.
but on friday i was back to full jen fodor status and excited about things. i arrived sat night and attended patrick’s and andrew’s house party for a short while. then headed over to nick and linnea’s apartment where i am staying for the next week.
in general it just sucks having to start over. it will get better but i have no idea where i want to live. my goal is to have a place in a month. i’m also worried about if my car breaks down what the freak am i going to do and how much is it going to cost? (my dad is a mechanic and i just gave him money for the parts) i just want to be settled, know my surroundings, and know what’s going to happen but i can’t.
i’ll be fine and hopefully in a few months all will be well. my first day of work today was good and the people i’m working with seem cool! so that’s great.
i knew this move wasn't going to be easy. but i know things will get better.
a picture for you.
Posted by jennifer at March 28, 2006 12:29 AM
You are so brave. Everything will work out for you there. You are a great person and will have no problem finding your place in california. I wish i could have seen you off. keep in touch. dre
Posted by: Adrienne at March 31, 2006 10:55 AM